One year on... memories of Gary and a legacy that will help others in despair

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It’s been a year since football manager Gary Speed was found dead at his home. Paul Robinson considers the legacy of his death for others who suffer depression.

A year on, the same questions are still being asked across the football world.

Why would a person with so much to live for, so much to cherish, end up in such a deep pit of despair? Why did a loving family man with countless friends and fans die alone in his garage?

Why, in short, did Gary Speed do it?

The Leeds United legend was found hanged at his home a year ago today. To any outside observer, Speed appeared a man content, both personally and professionally.

He was 42 and married to childhood sweetheart Louise. The couple had two sons, Ed and Tommy.

Speed had also built a reputation as one of the brightest young coaches in football since retiring as a player.

It was that seemingly charmed life which made the shattering news of the morning of Sunday, November 27, all the harder to comprehend.

Gary Cooper, chairman of the Leeds United Supporters Trust, told the Yorkshire Post: “’Why?’ is the one word that sums up what everyone thought. “Even to this day, after the coroner’s investigation and all the rest of it, it just doesn’t make sense. ’Why?’ is the word and it will remain that way for a lot of years.”

Huddersfield Town manager Simon Grayson is also at a loss as to the reason for Speed’s death. However, the former Leeds boss feels it is time for the questions to stop.

Grayson, who signed for Leeds on the same day as Speed when they were both schoolboys, said: “I think for the first few days and weeks, everybody was speculating and wondering. I think now that it’s best if it’s left, for the benefit of everybody involved.”

Grayson went on: “I think we are still shocked a year on, shocked that he is no longer with us.

“It’s just a massive tragedy that he did what he did. It’s also hard to imagine how quickly a year has gone by. People will sometimes almost have the belief that Gary’s still here.

“Losing him has been so hard to take for everyone that knew him. He wasn’t just a very popular sports person, he was also a great bloke.”

Speed’s agent and friend, Hayden Evans, echoed Grayson’s comments. Asked how he was bearing up a year on from the tragedy, he said: “I feel pretty much the same, to be honest. People talk about time being a great healer – well, it hasn’t been in this case.”

“Gary had such a huge 
impact on all those who knew him and he’s still very much missed. Not a day goes by when something doesn’t remind me of him.”

The bare facts of what occurred on the weekend of November 26 and 27 last year remain horribly familiar.

Speed was a guest on the BBC’s Saturday lunchtime Football Focus TV show, appearing alongside former Leeds team-mate Gary McAllister. He then travelled to a game between Manchester United and another of his old clubs, Newcastle 
United, before attending a 
dinner party at a friend’s home with his wife.

Mrs Speed told her husband’s inquest at Warrington Coroner’s Court in January that they “had words” after getting back to their home on the outskirts of Chester.

She then decided to go for a drive, “to clear my mind [and for] space to think”, she told Cheshire coroner Nicholas Rheinberg.

After returning home, she fell asleep in her car and woke at about 6am. Mrs Speed then went to the outside bathroom, where she noticed some shed keys that were usually stored there were missing.

She first visited the shed to 
see if her husband was inside, before moving to the garage. Fighting to keep her emotions in check, she told the inquest: “I went to the window and there I saw him.”

She nodded as Mr Rheinberg asked: “Could you see Gary on the stairs?” He continued: “Was it apparent that Gary was hanging?” “Yes, ” Mrs Speed told him.

Speed did not leave a suicide note, nor a message, and although he had a conversation by text with his wife days before his death, in which he talked in terms of taking his own life, he is said to have dismissed it before speaking excitedly about the future.

Mr Rheinberg said Speed may have killed himself accidentally after sitting for some time with a ligature around his neck.

He went on: “It may have been that this was some sort of dramatic gesture, not normally in Mr Speed’s character, but nonetheless, a possibility.”

Speaking in the direct 
aftermath of the tragedy, Hayden Evans said there had been no 
indication whatsoever that his friend had been suffering from depression.

Despite that, Speed’s death helped raise awareness of the problems that can be faced by professional sportsmen and women once the floodlights 
fade. The issue was propelled 
into the headlines again at the start of this year, when former Bradford City and Hull City footballer Dean Windass 
revealed he had twice attempted suicide during a battle with depression.

Adrian Schonfeld, a senior lecturer in sport and exercise psychology at Leeds Metropolitan University, said: “Missing the buzz [of playing] is certainly part of it, although it is a little more complex than that.

“Some people can make the transition to the world outside sport without major issues. Other people have great difficulty that can, in extreme cases, end with suicide.

“It’s not uncommon for 
people to end up with 
depression – retiring from 
sport is a major life change. There are factors, though, that can influence how people cope with that life change. One thing that can make the transition easier 
is planning.

“You often hear sports people who are coming towards retirement saying ‘I am doing my coaching badges’. In cases like that, they have already been preparing and thinking about what they are going to do when they retire, and coaching is one obvious alternative.

“Another factor you can talk about is identity. If you have someone who defines themselves as ‘a footballer’ and that’s the only thing there is, then when football is taken away there can be an issue.

“If you have got someone who plays football but also sees themselves as a husband or a father, or has other interests, then they are much more able to manage football disappearing from their lives.

“It’s still very difficult for 
many people to admit they 
have concerns, particularly in sport, where there is quite a masculine idea of not showing any weakness to the opposition 
or even to the media. It is better for them to talk about their concerns, however, even before they retire. After they retire there may be fewer people around to talk to, as they are not going into training every day.”

Mr Schonfeld also stressed that bodies like the 
Professional Footballers’ Association (PFA) are doing increasingly impressive work looking after the mental well-being of their members.

Bosses at the PFA responded to the loss of Speed by widening the circulation of a booklet on handling depression. Entitled The Footballers’ Guidebook, it contains advice and helpline numbers, plus case studies featuring the likes of Celtic manager Neil Lennon and PFA chairman and former Leeds player Clarke Carlisle.

The PFA originally sent out the 36-page booklet to its 4,000 members at the start of the 2011-12 season, following the deaths 
of Rushden goalkeeper Dale Roberts and German international Robert Enke.

Speed’s passing, however, saw it being made available to 50,000 ex-professionals.

The Hampshire-based 
Sporting Chance clinic, which helps sports people to fight addiction, was also contacted by 10 players in the days after the Leeds hero’s death.

This kind of extra support 
to people going through a 
difficult time provides a fitting tribute to the man the fans called “Speedo”.


Gary Speed’s career began as a youngster with Leeds United. He played a key role in the club’s 1989-90 promotion campaign, and as part of the midfield quartet that powered United to the 1991-92 First Division championship.

Speed made more than 300 appearances for Leeds before moving in 1996 to Everton. He also had spells with Newcastle United, Bolton Wanderers and Sheffield United, and played 85 times for Wales.

Flintshire-born Speed became manager at Sheffield United in 2010 but left a few months later to coach Wales.

Under his guidance, the team rose from 117th to 45th in the Fifa world rankings.

Leeds will mark the first anniversary of Speed’s death at tonight’s home game against Leicester City.