This is what it was like to be the UK's first transgender headteacher to transition in post

Claire Birkenshaw became the first transgender headteacher to transition while in post in the UK. She tells Laura Reid about her experiences ahead of a talk in Hull.
Claire Birkenshaw, who transitioned whilst in post as a headteacher.Claire Birkenshaw, who transitioned whilst in post as a headteacher.
Claire Birkenshaw, who transitioned whilst in post as a headteacher.

Claire Birkenshaw thumbs through a stash of student thank-you cards in her office at Leeds Beckett University and settles on one to read aloud. “Thank you for all the support you have given me,” it says. “I appreciate the hard work you have put in for us all. Continue being the best, happiest and funniest teacher you are.”

It’s a touching expression of gratitude that would leave any educationalist feeling valued and proud. And for Claire it goes even further. “That was such a kind thing to say about how you are received by students and what they think,” she says. “The students have been amazing.”

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Meet the Yorkshire non-binary gender community fighting back against a rising tide of stigma and hateIn 2015, Claire made history by becoming the first transgender headteacher to transition in post, in the UK, while working at a school in Hull.

Claire Birkenshaw says coming out is a here I am moment, as it had been for Philip Schofield. Picture: Jonathan Brady/PA WireClaire Birkenshaw says coming out is a here I am moment, as it had been for Philip Schofield. Picture: Jonathan Brady/PA Wire
Claire Birkenshaw says coming out is a here I am moment, as it had been for Philip Schofield. Picture: Jonathan Brady/PA Wire

“It was nerve-wracking,” she reflects of the first time she walked into the classroom as a woman. “I was utterly petrified...I was also petrified when I came to work here as well. You still anticipate how people will interact with you, what students will think, a whole host of different things.”

Later this week, as part of LGBT history month, Claire will deliver a talk at the University of Hull. In it, she will reflect on trans experience in the education system, drawing on her work as an educationalist and equality and diversity advocate, and on her own reality – a journey she describes as a “gender safari”.

People often frame it as a journey, but it feels like there’s variation with a safari,” she explains. “There is awe and wonder on a safari and danger as well.”

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From early childhood, Claire felt a sense of gender dysphoria. “I can’t explain it or describe how it happened. I needed to express myself as Claire, although I didn’t call myself Claire at the time. I also recognised that this would cause issues and conflict in people and would be seen somehow as problematic or wrong.”

In 1979, when her mother asked if she wanted to watch the A Change of Sex documentary, following the transition of trans woman Julia Grant, Claire took it as a sign.

“I thought Mum was reaching out because she knew. But at the time I was too ashamed and too embarrassed. I didn’t want to reveal anything and say, ‘This is me and this is how I feel’ because I was afraid of what would happen next.

"Would the conversation have resulted in the fact this was ‘nonsense’ or ‘a phase’ and I’d grow out of it? And also, what would it mean in terms of going to school? If this got out, how would I be treated?”

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It would be another four years before Claire first raised her feelings, opening up to a friend when she was 15. She hoped it would “go away”, that she could control or suppress it. “It just doesn’t,” she says. “I felt the person I was talking to would understand and that they would be okay. I just needed to share it.

“Whenever you say it out loud, there is relief to an extent,” she continues, “because you’re saying, ‘Look, this is me, this is who I am’. But you always anticipate you will be rejected and always anticipate that once people have that information they will use it against you. There’s always that fear, because you see what society’s like. You see how people can be hurtful to one another.”

The gender change journey of North Yorkshire Police call handlerFor years, Claire stayed silent, fearing that life as Claire was an impossibility, that she would have been rejected by society. The internal conflict was huge.

“It caused ridiculous amounts of inner turmoil. It was horrible. But if I say those things, it feels like I’m being negative to the people in my life. I’m not meaning to be negative. I feel sad that I wasn’t able to say, ‘This is who I am’.”

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Work helped her to cope, a welcome distraction. After studying a PGCE at Hull University, she had become a secondary school humanities teacher in the city, later becoming a principal. “Teaching is incredibly immersive,” she says. “For me, it occupied everything.”

Thoughts about her inner-self continued to dominate and Claire began to ask herself if not now, then when? “I didn’t want to die not being me,” she says softly. “I didn’t want to have regret by feeling that in my one chance of life I’d not been authentic with myself and authentic with others.”

And so, in 2015, Claire made the decision that she would transition and live her life as a woman. That meant coming out to colleagues, students, friends and family. And it also meant opening up to her parents.

“I think you just anticipate rejection – from everyone. It seems everyone has an opinion. Some of the conversations that were had with me was that it would be like a grieving process for other people, almost as if they had lost something.

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“There’s a burden there, that you feel that you are causing harm for others. Some people might not want a relationship with Claire. You go through stages of who you’re going to inform. Part of it is trying to identify who you think will be accepting. It’s incredibly isolating. It’s very lonely.”

As a headteacher, Claire felt a sense of duty – a duty not to shy away, a duty to give visibility for trans people among youngsters, teachers and the wider community. For many, she was the first openly trans person they had met.

“By coming out, it is saying, ‘There you go, here I am’, a bit like Phillip Schofield”, who has recently come out as gay. If I hid away, the message that comes from that for anyone else in the same situation, who is working or learning within education, is that there is no place for them in education, that they need to withdraw. And that is just not what a modern, caring democracy should look like at all.”

She will never forget the smile and ‘Good morning, Miss’ from one of her students on her first day in school as a woman. “The student pulled me to one side and said, ‘We have a trans in our family as well’. And that’s exactly it.

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"That’s what we don’t know. Whenever we’re working in school communities, you don’t know the connections people can have. You don’t know they might have family members that are LGBTQ.”

Tristan Smith - the transgender rights campaigner and Huddersfield student who wants to make life better for trans peopleToday Claire is a lecturer in childhood and education at Leeds Beckett University, which she joined in 2018, and also focuses on improving the educational experiences of trans students across the UK.

Her interests are framed around LGBTQ and inclusion –how educational establishments can foster a climate of acceptance and understanding and challenge stigma and stereotypes and how that in turn can interact with wellbeing and academic outcomes.

When it comes to education around the LGBT community, the Government’s relationships, sex and health education guidance suggests teaching is “sensitive and age-appropriate in approach and content”.

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“What does that look like? What does that mean?” Claire asks. She says factors such as the age when people come out and when they start puberty should be taken into consideration.

“Learning is not only a human right but it is essential for being human and belonging,” she says, ahead of her appearance in Hull. “Not only should our curriculum, resources and physical space reflect that but our behaviour too. Every opportunity should be used to promote understanding, tackle prejudice and foster good relations.”

Inspired in Hull with Alumna Claire Birkenshaw: Reflections on a trans experience in education takes place at Middleton Hall, on February 26 at 5pm. The university will also dedicate a lecture theatre in Claire’s honour.

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